How old am I really???

So, thanks to Two Blonde Boys, I have now been able to find out how old I really am!

Click on this link to find out your "true" age.

Here's my stats:

Biological age: 35
Real Age: 23.5

Average life expectancy: 74
Your life expectancy: 85.5

You know...people have always told me that I look younger than my biological age, but I never thought I looked that young!

What's your "real" age?

Finding the Foothills...

So...if you read my last post, you know that I've been walking through my own personal desert. The desert has continued but it seems to get just a little bit better with each passing day. I'm starting to see glimpses of the foothills and the soft, hot desert sand that I've been walking on isn't quite as soft and hot as it used to be. Now...don't get me wrong, things are far from great and marvelous. I struggle every minute of every day...some days are just better than others!

Unfortunately, today wasn't one of those days! Today was a very hard day and in the end I was left feeling undeserving and unworthy of all the good things in my life. Funny thing is, is that I can't really pinpoint one exact thing that made it so bad. It was more of a combination of things...work, school, lack of sleep, etc, etc, etc. It was a day that was borderline tears from about lunch time until around 5pm. Not the best way to spend half of your day at work!

I'm trying to spend more time...well, who am I kidding, spending time AT ALL...in the Word. I did very good my first week. I was actually going through and reading 2, 3, and sometimes 4 devotions a day. I was very thirsty and hungry. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm not hungry and thirsty now to hear what God has to say to me. For some reason, I've found it harder to 'find the time' to spend with God. I have no excuses to offer (not that it would matter anyway) other than I just haven't.

It's been two weeks since I turned back around to face God and started to walk towards him again. While each day is a struggle, I'm starting to feel God's love for me again. I'm starting to feel worthy and deserving and lovable again. I'm starting to recognize the woman that I face in the mirror every day again. I know that God has forgiven me for turning my back on him. I'm still working on forgiving myself for turning my back on him. But I can feel him there, gently taking me by the hand and trying to lead me down the path.